Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in rage_wolffe420's LiveJournal:

Friday, March 17th, 2006
12:47 am	wow it's been a while. Hey whats going on everyone? not much here. i've just decided to write in here because i have the most amazing news ever. i finally got my GED last month, and i finally got my car back up and running and i was just hired at NYCD Inc. up in Boston Mass. if your wondering what NYCD Inc. is is a manufacturing company that creates and designs CD-ROM and DVD format programs for running such sources. in other words you know how when you pop in a DVD and before you can play the movie u have the main menu screen? well my job is to come up with designs and fromats like that and present them to CEO's at Different companys in which they turn around and present them to movie studios for production. So ya lets just put it this way i'm loving my job right now it just sucks that i dont live closer to work because as of right now i have to drive three hours between getting there and going home. but lucky for me my work is trying to help me find an apartment closer to work so i can be on call incase of an emergency. so yeah hopefully me and my girlfriend racheal will be moving very soon. But man i must say i love the city of boston! there is so much to do and such. i just can't wait to move up there. I'll just be glad to get out of Willimantic though. this town brings nothing but drama and problems. It just seems that there is no room for someone to be themselves because there is always at least one person out to judge you for the slightest thing; and i just feel as if i can do better with me life ever since i got out of jail. i must say prison opened my eyes alot and i've never seen things so clear since i was released. i dont know what it is but it just seems ever since i stopped to look at myself and all the fucked up things i've done in my past it's like what was i doing? because in all reality yes i did screw up some peoples lives and i'm not proud of it at all. but i also relized i fucked up mine the most and now all i have to focus on is keeping myself out of trouble. doing my best at work and giving all my love and free time to my loving girlfriend that has supported me from day one since i got out of jail. I love you Racheal, you mean everything to me and i appreciate everything you've done for me and all the support you've shown me; i dont think i could ever show u the same amount of love and compassion you have shown me. Also while i'm writting i want to apologize to two people i should have apologized too a long time ago. so this goes out to Steph and Jen. I'm sorry for all the bullshit i have caused you two. you were always there and all i did was betray your trust. and i relize i took things to far even too a point they should have never gone and i understand you ladies want nothing to do with me ever again and i dont blame you. i was a dick head but while i was in jail i had alot of time to think about the stupid shit i've done and i've come to the realization that i was a dick! i took advantage of both of you and that was uncalled for and i know there are no words in the world that i could ever speek that could ever represent how sorry i really am and i know there is nothing i could ever do to even put a dent in this void i've caused you two to try an make ammends but what i can do is say i'm sorry from the bottom of my heart and hope someday you can have the compassion in your hearts to show me forgivness but if you decide not to i completely understand. i just thought i should tell you two before i never get the chance to and have to continue on my path with a regret that will last forever. so once again i apologize (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 17th, 2005
5:26 pm	WOW it's been a while!!! Well it's been a while since i've written in here i know but i'm back and man do i have alot to say. Well first of since i've last written of course me and steph have broken up. i love her to death but i just couldn't deal with the drama anymore. so since me and her broke up and i moved outta her house i dated a girl Josie for a little bit but unfortunally even though she was quite attractive she wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed. i still would like to be friends with her i just can't be her boyfriend cuz she lies to much and is a very manipulative person. So luckey for me a met an awsome women about a month ago that help me to relize this who i've as well been dating for almost 2 weeks now. Her name is Heather she's 21 going on 22 on the 27th of this month. She is just a all around amazing person; she has been supportive with everything i've been dealing with lately, such as my probation situation, helping me to find us anapartment, as well as finding a new job. But even though she seems to be the perfect person she can have her rough edges but thats what attracts me to her. see when u first meet her she's the type of person that comes off as an all around nice person but when u fuck with her she tends to go on the war path. for example i was hanging with my friend dave and his little sister Virgina last week and heather was there as well. but unfurtunally virgina didn't know me and heather were together at the time not many people did cuz all of my friends have a crush on her and they have all told her but she turned them down and then she came and "asked me" out so we were kinda keeping it on the DL at first cause we didn't want to start any drama. but anyways we're all driving to walmart and dave is in the front driving and heather is in the front with him so not to make anything look to obvious, so they r up front and me and virgina r in the back next thing u know fucking virgina starts grabbing up on me and shit and i'm throwing her signs to stop touching me and shit but she wont so finally me and heather get home afterwards and i tell her wut happened. And jesus fucking christ she flipped shit. so the next day virgina calls up the house looking for me and her brother to hang out and my girl picks up the phone. so my girl starts talking to her in a civil manor and wut not and then virgina asks whos at the house. so heather decides to play a little mind game, so she tells virgina that her(heather) her boyfriend; virgina not knowing thats me, and dave were there. so virgina decides to head over to the house. so when she gets there man was she in for a surprise. so virgina walks in the house and sees me heather and dave all sitting in the living room so the first thing she does is walk up to me and trys giving me a hug but i kinda vere away from it. so virgina only seeing me and dave and heather asks heather, " wheres ur boyfriend?" and heather being a smart ass says, ' u just tried giving him a hug. and i shit u not fucking virgina became speechless. so then she begins to stutters, 'whe whe when di di did u two sta start dating?" so heather responds calmly almost a week ago. and i swear to god i never seen someone so pale cuz she relized she fucked up in the car the night before, next thing u know virgina takes off and i haven't seen her since. but anyways the other day as well my girl shows her ugly side again for u see me and heather go to planned parenthood the otherday so me and her can go gety tested so i go in first get test then heather goes in to get blood done and a papsmear and all that shit so i'm sitting in the waiting room and my ex steph and her cunt friend Jen D and they look at me and say nothing so they pick up something and go and wait in jens car until me and my girl get out so me and my girl get out of PP and they start up the car and go speeding past us thinking they r all kewl and shit. but word to the wise Jen and Steph next time my girl sees u she's gonna beat ur asses and if u think i'm playing bring ur fat asses around chapman ST but other then that life has been going pretty good. but anyways i'm out later yall (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 22nd, 2005
6:40 pm	SORRY PPLZ Yo rage here. sorry it's been a while since i've been up in here but hey thats wut happens when u work 12 hour days and shit. but anyways works been going good I've been working at Beldin now a little over 2 weeks and let me tell u this isn't a job that just anyone can do. theres alot to it and shit and it's hard work and the pay aint that great but it better then minimum and it pays the bills and i only have to work monday-thursday but hey u gotta do wut u gotta do. but anyways yesterday i went to streetfest even though i was tired and had just got home from work; but yeah i went to see my g/f's aunt preform at the willimantic idol shit. she was pretty good i must say....for a women in her 40's lol. but after that is when the shit hit the fan. lets just put it this way good thing my girl and jen were there cuz i would prolly be locked up right about now. yeah that bitch ass poser heather was there trying to get rise outta me no luck there but damn did she get jen pissed! jen wuz about to take the bitches head off no joke. Then that punk ass bitch alberto showed up trying to act all tough cuz cops were around same with that bitch ass wigga Randy trying to act all tough too; both of them knowing i'm on probation. funny how ppl talk shit when they know someone can't do shit but when someone beats the shit outta them(alberto) they keep their mouths shut or how they get so fucking scared they go running to their mommy and have her sign them outta school(Randy) cuz they dont wanna get sent to the hospital. lol. but anyways an hour or two of being there i bounced to go home cuz i was tired and i didn't wanna get myself arrested cuz jen got to th point where she had too push me away cuz i was about to beat the shit outta some pplz. pussy ass wanna be thugs. shit roll through my territory in SW or Danielson and see how long it takes u to get shot.......i give it 35-45 seconds. well anyways when i gotz back home i sat down relaxed and took my anger out on GOD of WAR then i watched some TV and passed the fuck out on the couch lol. so yeah thats wuts good well i'll hit this shit up the next chance i get later mutha fackos. Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 11th, 2005
8:03 pm	Work!!! wut a long ass fuckin day Well started work today. and i've been up since 2:20am. good those hours r long as all hell. but it wuz kinda fun; cuz i learned alot. the only thing that sucked wuz standing up all day. Also i offically "HATE" my fucking steel-toe boots. those things are way to fucking heavey to carry around on ur feet for 12 hours a day. i should seriously invest in getting steel-toe sneakers. god it felt like i had fucking 30lbs shackles on my feet by the end of my shift. but oh well u wanna make a good living u gotta bare the bad shit and push on through. but anyways i gotta do it again tommorrow. so i have to be up earlier again. but the only real thing i'm hating right now is that i have to work all this week then i have to work til next thursday until i get my first check so pretty much i work one whole week with out pay and i'm always going to be behind one week in pay. but thats just how life goes sometimes and i'm gonna have to deal with it. also at this point i can't afford to become i failure i gotta make something of my life for a change and show my parents that i'm not some two bit criminal thats gonna end up in jail by the age of 21. god r they gonna hate me when i'm making more money then they ever did combined. oh well thats wut u assholes get for always putting me down saying i'll amount to nothing just becuz i had a fucked up childhood. Oh and wut now u said that theres no way i'll ever be as good as Jammie. dont forget u gave her everything i've never had anything handed to me by either one of u. and of course jammies gonna go places. but thats only cuz u 2 jump when she says jump. But whos the the little bitch now? looks like jammie is and the funny thing about it is jammie graduated and i'm still making more then her and u two combined. but anyways enough of the boasting and proving to yall that yes u guys have been wrong in ur life and ur not perfect and that u have lyed. and this is to all the times u doubted me. I'm on top now and still rising. but anyways enough of bashing the bitch ass folks time for me to hit the sack cuz i gotta get up at 2:20am again. well later bitches. Current Mood: bitchy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 10th, 2005
7:00 pm	wuts a day Well today is the last day of my party life. for tommorrow i start my new job at beldin cdt in manchester. good thats gonna be fun. now i gotta deal with fuckin 12 hour days from 4am to 4 pm. but hey it's money and it's a way to finally make something of myself instead of sitting around all day long doing nothing but watching tv and becoming fat. but hey it was fun while it lasted. all the nights of getting drunk and stoned off my ass. and just chillin with friends and falling alseep where ever there was a floor and then doing it all over the next day. but hey we all got to grow up some time i guess it's time i do so my self. well wish me luck yall. later Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)