wow it's been a while.

Hey whats going on everyone? not much here. i've just decided to write in here because i have the most amazing news ever. i finally got my GED last month, and i finally got my car back up and running and i was just hired at NYCD Inc. up in Boston Mass. if your wondering what NYCD Inc. is is a manufacturing company that creates and designs CD-ROM and DVD format programs for running such sources. in other words you know how when you pop in a DVD and before you can play the movie u have the main menu screen? well my job is to come up with designs and fromats like that and present them to CEO's at Different companys in which they turn around and present them to movie studios for production. So ya lets just put it this way i'm loving my job right now it just sucks that i dont live closer to work because as of right now i have to drive three hours between getting there and going home. but lucky for me my work is trying to help me find an apartment closer to work so i can be on call incase of an emergency. so yeah hopefully me and my girlfriend racheal will be moving very soon. But man i must say i love the city of boston! there is so much to do and such. i just can't wait to move up there. I'll just be glad to get out of Willimantic though. this town brings nothing but drama and problems. It just seems that there is no room for someone to be themselves because there is always at least one person out to judge you for the slightest thing; and i just feel as if i can do better with me life ever since i got out of jail. i must say prison opened my eyes alot and i've never seen things so clear since i was released. i dont know what it is but it just seems ever since i stopped to look at myself and all the fucked up things i've done in my past it's like what was i doing? because in all reality yes i did screw up some peoples lives and i'm not proud of it at all. but i also relized i fucked up mine the most and now all i have to focus on is keeping myself out of trouble. doing my best at work and giving all my love and free time to my loving girlfriend that has supported me from day one since i got out of jail. I love you Racheal, you mean everything to me and i appreciate everything you've done for me and all the support you've shown me; i dont think i could ever show u the same amount of love and compassion you have shown me. Also while i'm writting i want to apologize to two people i should have apologized too a long time ago. so this goes out to Steph and Jen. I'm sorry for all the bullshit i have caused you two. you were always there and all i did was betray your trust. and i relize i took things to far even too a point they should have never gone and i understand you ladies want nothing to do with me ever again and i dont blame you. i was a dick head but while i was in jail i had alot of time to think about the stupid shit i've done and i've come to the realization that i was a dick! i took advantage of both of you and that was uncalled for and i know there are no words in the world that i could ever speek that could ever represent how sorry i really am and i know there is nothing i could ever do to even put a dent in this void i've caused you two to try an make ammends but what i can do is say i'm sorry from the bottom of my heart and hope someday you can have the compassion in your hearts to show me forgivness but if you decide not to i completely understand. i just thought i should tell you two before i never get the chance to and have to continue on my path with a regret that will last forever. so once again i apologize